madness appears brutally,
ready to practice on myself!
slowly i’m loosing my senses,
feeling this atrocious pain,
powerful and so intense,
taking the control of my brain!
as i practice my self-destruction,
i’m able to reach my paroxysm!
while i, disembowel my chest,
my suicidal attemps has failed!
eminent destruction of my body,
is this the deliverance i was expecting?
plunging my hands in my stomach…
waiting for the final butchery!
still continuing my pogrom on myself,
such horrible thing to taste, i’ll never reach the end!
am i , blaming myself again!
sinful actions, i’m falling in despair!!!
this terrible thing took my body and my soul!
butchering my scarful corpse, and drinking my blood!
now i open my torso, insatisfied i eat my guts!
questionning situation, why i’m still alive?
my soul won’t leave me, what’t the next step to mortality?
body mutilation, wonded in my cranium,
there’s no explanation i can’t die!
looking at my carc*ss putrified and maimed,
crucified by my soul, my suicidal attempts have failed!
slowly i retreive my senses,
the heinous pang is now gone…
forced to see this desolating reality, my organs are all around my body!
condemn to live,