why do i even bother anymore - chara's diary lyrics
[hook]
why do i try?
it’s not fair
why do i try?
it’s not fair
[spoken word / monologue]
bro, it’s like every f*cking day
i’m just putting a bullsh*t act on at school
like—i just wanna be myself
why can’t i be myself?
bro, i’ve hid my music from f*cking people
people i would—
like, bro, people at school don’t even know about this music sh*t
because i already know they’re gonna be on d*ck about it
they just gonna judge me
they’re gonna look at me different every day
bro, i gotta hide sh*t i’m truly passionate about
so motherf*ckers wouldn’t make my life a living h*ll
i mean—why the f*ck is that fair?
that sh*t doesn’t make sense to me, bro
p*sses me off sometimes
bro, i wish i could just be this
f*cking bubbly, creative beacon
or f*cking light, or whatever the f*ck
but i just can’t
i don’t know why
i guess one reason might be
because i’m hiding the sh*t i’m really passionate about
but even if i do show it
what the f*ck else is there about me?
“yo, i do music—that’s sick”
what else, bro?
i’m just a miserable piece of sh*t
like, f*cking h*ll, man
i’m actually just so sick of this bullsh*t
like—holy f*ck
this sh*t actually p*sses me off
like, oh my f*cking god
i’m actually such a—
bro, i’m actually the worst f*cking person on—
bro, on everything i love, bro
if my parents found out—
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