you can't be told it you must behold it - swirlies lyrics

restless and numb
you can’t be told it
you must behold it
to not forget it
revelation
you can’t control it
disobeyance returns
learning you’ll never learn
i keep telling myself
do not be mortified
by the unsolidified
just grin and bear it
learned and unlearned
acts of controlling
methods of compensation
methods of control