lirik lagu 110_dad explaining assassinations when i was 9 – sleeper// muscle

a red dot and a number
your screams all stacked on top of one another
as i remember
my dad telling me what bulletproof vests are

dark dreams pointed at each other
my throat got burned saying, “i’m a lover”
as i remember
my dad telling me what knifeproof vests are

i said, i said

a fresh blade and a red chest and
a straight mark to remind me what i gave you
the pain of life will leave you
but i can make it stay

a white sky and a white sand
my smile gets bigger [?] to you as i stand
i will get smaller
but i can never [?]

i said, i said
i said, i said